1990-1991 went off the rails after my dad died. DX: rapid cycling bipolar. Hospitalized@the NIMH, stabilized, got a girlfriend(now my wife), meds stopped working, tried others but essentially stable, worked for 13 years in a high stress job and in late 2004 went off the rails, again, but never recovered. Tried nearly two dozen meds. Slowly went from a man who was confident and self-assured to someone I don't recognize, but I keep trying to find the 'key' that will reboot my broken brain and endocrine system. Not a cure but some protocol that will give me back my mojo. I agree with winter4me's advice. Go to YouTube and put in 'Great Day To Be Alive' by Travis Tritt. Daryll Scott, who wrote the song, sounds like he lived through his own dark journey.