I'm so sorry Ouch. I know exactly where you are coming from. Sometimes it just feels like it's not worth the effort.
I hope you will be able to decrease your meds if you think you don't need them but don't let yourself be in pain, either.
Sending you lot's of "hug's"

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Linda