I was here a few years ago but am really struggling recently. Had six years free from self harming, but last few months I have been injuring more and more. Got sent home from work last week after breaking down and someone noticing one of my cuts.

Feel like a complete idiot and don't know what to do. Have asked for help from someone at work, but don't know if I should. Can't go back to docs as they put me on meds every time I go about my anxiety or depression, and everything I have tried just makes the urges to self harm even worse. Plus I don't want them to send me to hospital again. I had to spend two weeks in there last time, on constant 15 minute watches day and night.

Sorry for posting, just I am really scared and just don't know what to do :-(