So i don't know what i want from this thread.. But last night I became really suicidal, my partner was asleep, so i took a small overdose.. Before i took the overdose I started hearing voices again (telling me i am a bad person, need to be punished) and hallucinating. I was seeing animals out of their cages and was so convinced i was gonna be attacked.. Then i kept itching cos felt my body was covered in fleas.. I am on Olanzapine and Abilify for this problem.. I have been stable for the past 2/3 months but last night it all came back.. I am also being told to kill people, which i wouldn't do.. But i feel like i am loosing control..

The only thing that i think has triggered this is, i have been talking about the past sexual abuse i experienced with my CPN.. We been doing some work around it..

But i am really struggling, i just wanna die and shut the voices/hallucinations up and make them disappear..