This relationship with my t is the best I have ever had with anyone but since she wants to wind things down I am thinking it would be best for me if I detached from her before it ends.
I am going to miss her so much, tears are falling as I type this because I love my t soooo much but I know this is what I need to do because if she terminates me or when she terminates me I won't cope very well. I dont cope very well when anyone leaves, it sparks deep emotional pain and abandonment feelings in which I spiral out of control.
I really dont want t to leave me as I have become so attached to her that it hurts when I imagine life without her. She is the only person who truly accepted me and cared for me and gave me hugs and meant them
This is breaking my heart in two and I am not coping very well but I can't ring t even though she told me to ring if I needed her but I can't because I need to detach and distance myself.
I wish I could tell t that I need her but I can't tell her how much she means to me and how I felt about last t when she terminated and how this is breaking back all the feelings again, and it feels like when my ex left me and I feel so alone and unwanted all over again