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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
I feel like I've been saying that all my life, "just leave me alone!"
but nobody ever does leave me alone.
It sucks because I want to be close to people and have meaningful relationships but most people are stupid and even if they're not.. they don't understand me or our personalities just clash. So what's the point, really?
Easier to just stay by myself. Except I can't tolerate being alone.
But I don't know how to not be alone sometimes. I don't know if that makes any sense. Like, I can't be alone but being around people... it's like it almost physically hurts most of the time. But when I'm alone that almost physically hurts too.
It feels like I'm in an impossible situation, all the ****ing time.
I don't know what I'm trying to say. My thoughts are chaos and I feel misunderstood and like everyone hates me and is laughing at me. >_<
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Maybe this isn't what you're looking for but do you have a pet? I know I relate to animals much more than other people. It keeps me from getting lonely.
It has taken me years to learn how to interact with others and based on recent clashes in the forum I'd say I'm still learning. But IRL people used to make me sick when I was around them. Back when I was in high school I actually got called down to the counselors office because I would not say hello to people. So it was a long time ago for me but I just wanted to say that you can change if you want to although there is no need to.