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This is a different prospective but one that helped me.
I tried to see it as a break up where two people mutually agree that it should end while really not wanting it to end. What helped me was to see T in a more realistic way and I even encouraged myself to see ways where he was not helpful to me to add some balance. In doing so, it helped me see that he wasn't my everything and in fact, had some shortcomings.
I reminded myself that he was seeing me as a business professional and that all business relationships end when the services are no longer necessary. I knew that he did not think of me outside of the session and I reminded myself of that. It sounds cold but it helped me to detach. I thought about how else I could spend that time and money.
It was a litte mind-game that I played with myself so that it wouldn't be so painful. Whenever I thought about how much I would miss him, I tried to do one of the above. It was still painful and I felt both sadness and anger but I didn't stay with those feelings for long periods of time. Over time, I was able to see the good and bad in our therapeutic relationship. To this day, I still miss him on occasion but I know that I will never go back. It was an ending for the both of us.
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