(((((Lifelike)))))))),

I totally get how you are feeling, it isn't over the top, it is how you feel at the moment. This ending must have been traumatizing with a capital T. I hope you can talk to your new T about this (if you can keep an appt., what don't people get that you are really in a bad place right now?). I would hate for you to have a meeting and your xT be the same was she was as that would be incredibly painful. I would want to know what her agenda is, does she plan on being there for you or to argue whatever her point is? IDK, just a thought. I want you to be safe and feel peace. This is a painful process, that gets a little easier as time goes by. The struggle still sucks, but it is bearable and I have hope. You, too, will find this in time, although I suspect you may not be able to see it now. I am here, keep venting as much as you need to do so. Sending you hugs.