There is hope for recovery. I, too, have been at that very low point where you don't feel life is worth living & you are helpless--being consumed by sadness. I found that medication does help tremendously, but it took a year of trial & error (a year of hell) to find the right combo for me. Then once I was stabilized I was able to make some progress in therapy & change my lifestyle in order to reduce stress, get toxic people out of my life (family members & some friends), start LIVING again. I've found something I never thought I would--joy. You can, too. We'll be here for you.--Suzy

P.S. My mother was from N.Z.