Life works in cycles...you will be happy again...then sad...then ok...then...on and on. I know the feeling of wanting to disappear....and have tried several times to make that happen. If I did I would have missed out on some really cool stuff, painful stuff, surprising stuff... I never would have seen Game of Thrones on HBO....no would I have seen the recent photos from the international space station. i found that I am frequently in pain....but life can still have joy (an the whole range of emotions) even when I am in pain. Thinking of you....