Today I found out I officially have a contract for next year. My principal had assured me I would, but she was hoping she would be able to find a spot for another teacher who has been in the county longer so that there would be no hard feelings in keeping me. She is able to keep both of us, but prefers that I stay in fifth grade and she is moving the other teacher to another grade level. The other teacher is satisfied to have a job, and I thought I was, too.
Minutes later, after finding out the news, I was treated pretty rudely by a teammate because she is so upset that the other teacher has to leave our grade level, obviously I am her choice to leave. I won't go over all that she said, but my feelings were very much hurt.
After all of this, I had therapy today. I had written down the wrong time. When I discovered that I was late, I lost it. I have been crying since then. I let my t know that I couldn't focus on anything we were discussing.
Obviously, I was not just crying over the appointment. I was just so deflated after feeling so great about the job situation for next year, with both of us getting jobs.
I am not over it yet, and it will take awhile because I can't move away from this sadness.
I hope this isn't the circumstance that sends me completely in the wrong direction. I have been emotional lately but able to maintain. I don't want to go into crazy mode!
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