Been feeling bored and empty today. Just the same old feelings of not knowing quite what to do with myself, what to do with my time, with the hours of my day. But I feel like, if I had a million friends and all of my free time filled, I would still feel this empty feeling inside. Maybe not as much, but I would probably still feel it.

I've been praying a lot lately which I never do (because I thought I lost my faith), but I feel like I need to believe that someone is watching out for me. I don't want to be all alone in this. I don't want this to be the way I am, the way I feel, for the rest of my life (or, heaven forbid, that I get worse).