you know this really stinks! I have dug myself out of my deep black hole for now! I am ok, not wonderful but not like I was last week. I feel as though I am once again escaping and running (acting as if) from all my issues and then without warning i will start flashing and having nightmares and bingo it will be there once again! i just wish when i felt like this that i could just bottle it up!!!! anyways, i just go through my day and evening as if all is ok even though those who really know me know different. oh well, times like this is when i feel i can beat this thing without meds!! we will see how long it lasts!! I also have 31 days without si which is huge right now for me even though i know when these mri's etc are over i will cut/burn again!! Thankyou for those who continue to support me!!