You sound a lot like me. I ran up thousands of dollars in bills by shopping during college. Didn't care about paying it back. I'm looking at bankruptcy now because of it.

I can remember feeling depressed back when I was about 15. It's been a problem ever since. Tried numerous antidepressants that pooped out within 6 months to a year. The anxiety kicked in a few years ago. It ruined my career and just recently I admitted that my bipolar got me fired. (the highs and lows just made for way too much swing in my work quality)

If the meds aren't working, try a new one. I agree with Vita. Lamictal changed my life. The only problem with me is I had a reaction to it and had to stop. But talk to your t or get a psychiatrist for meds.

Good luck and don't give up!!!!