I used to keep empty bottles around to smash...
It is just so hard when you know that no matter what you say or do, someone important to you is not going to respond in a way that helps you.
How do you feel about that t recommending your next t?
And do not harm yourself----hug and hold yourself, soothe, rage when you must, cry and let it out---------------------some things really are beyond our control, (do you have a medium to express yourself in? there is writing here. what about drawing or making a collage about the t? your feelings?) Something to use your time productively and expressively, perhaps something to show the new t. that shows your emotions...