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Originally Posted by tiggerandcrew
What helps me is to remember the hell they went through and why they were created. They got me through the trauma that I probably could not have coped with. It was the only way my mind could pull me through it. They took my place so that I could survive. For years I could forget some of the horid stuff but they kept it for me. Now as much as I would like to get rid of some stuff I don't want to face, I look at them and can not give more for a small child to handle. I figure it is time for me to start protecting and helping them just like I would a small neighbor child or my own child. I take at least some time each day to talk to each and either play or work with them. I don't like remembering or feeling what I had forgotten but better me than that internal child that has gone through so much and protected me in the past so well.
This is just the view I have come to take and is working very well for me.
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Thank you for this comment Tiggerandcrew,
It's true, they took my place so I could survive, and it's not fair of me to look away from them. And that is now no longer possible. When I read your comment it made me think. The last thing I can do is to give them attention, they deserve it. I liked what you wrote about working with them. I try that now. Listen to them and read for the litle ones.
It's hard to know what they have went through and that they kept the stuff I could not handle. It is not nice to know that what I already knew is been worse
and that there is more to the trauma. but I think in order to heal i have to face their story and everything that comes with it.
