I discussed it first with my P.O. yesterday after she told me I failed a drug test on March 15th (I had THC in my "specimen" lol) which ironically did not violate my probation, but did raise some more red flags. She decided to order a complete Psychological Evaluation for me and said pending that, I could have to go into inpatient drug treatment for up to a year. That was the last straw. I would be the laughing stock of the whole place for being there for that (have you ever seen intervention...marijuana is never on there lol cuz supposedly its not addictive lol) That's not why I don't want to go, its because its a flippin' year lol. That was NOT in the terms of my probation. This way, I can be done with everything and work on my substance abuse problems in my own time.

When I called the judge he said, "You have completed 80% of what is required. I will revoke your probation and a warrant for your arrest will be issued. You may be arrested anywhere at any time, even at your home." I asked many questions just to make sure additional charges will not be filed; according to him they won't. I made a huge mistake almost two years ago and had the misfortune of getting called on it immediately. I don't disagree with the decision, however I do feel the pressures and obligations that have been placed on me have been heavier than my crime. I am truly remorseful and I haven't repeated myself ONCE. I now am hyper-aware of the law and I have taken steps to never transgress it again. Previously, I had no idea that the law was so serious. I am wiser now lol.

You better come visit me George Or at least let me show off my harmonica playing skills and sailboat folding expertise when I get out lol. I'm gonna try to put this out of my mind though for now so I can enjoy my life without the dread. I know you'd have to be completely insane to pull that off but I'm not a far cry from that or so I've been told by police lol. I'm cheered up right now, but the fear will probably set in as the days go by and the realization of what's about to happen sets in. Hopefully I'll be put into the general population this time so at least I won't be lonely and I'm sure I'll be exposed to a bunch of cool interesting stories that I can morph into my own writings. Thanks George.