Thanks so much hamster-bamster! I'm sure that birth-control may indeed be the answer here.

As far as my sentence in-question, to her that level of love means that's the reason she does the "Push" part of the BP "push-pull" cycle with me. She reasons that because of the deep-affections with me, I become the prime target for her to push away, out of a feeling of unworthiness of anyone's love, especially the first love she's ever felt from a significant other.

I really appreciate your insight!