I wrote him an email 2 days ago that I will probably send to him today and talk about it tomorrow, only I have a few things to add... I've found I can tell him the bigger/riskier things better in writing than I can in person. So... yeah. I hate that my defenses spring into action and I make everything seem ok when it really isn't. and then I get frustrated when I don't get the help I need/want. i'm hoping I get approved for disability after I finally put in my application. I got a call-back for an interview today, and I am terrified of going because I don't want to screw up people's opinion of me there. I like them, and they seem to like me... I'm afraid I will mess up at the job, and they will be mad... but I will call anyway and go in to talk, because it's miles above the other job I just declined. It would be so much more fun, and with a great group of people to work with...