Skysblue- what a really lovely post
I feel pretty much the same. I went into T thinking that it would be like a series of linear steps that i would have to take, like a list of things i'd have to discuss.

But i have found that therapy is not a linear process, and no matter how hard i try ( VERY hard, let me tell you! ), i cannot control it.
I cannot control my T either, and neither should i try to control her.

I am finding myself talking about things that i never even knew were an issue, but i know them to be definite issues now.

Through all the hostility i show to my T, through the resisting her, through all the tears i shed (at home in private), through all the heartache and confusion my emotions and memories bring up to the surface...i know it'll be worth it.