Skysblue, thank you SO much for sharing your insight and thoughts. You perfectly summed up what I'm feeling and experiencing now.

Yes, therapy is a magical process, and what that process is, I, like you, have no idea.

I'm just now starting to trust the process, to give up control, not go into sessions with a preplanned agenda, and as a result I've had some of the most productive sessions.

It's hard and painful trusting the process. My T keeps telling me "you're going to feel worse before you feel better" and I definitely HAVE felt worse. But, knowing I have T's support and a scheduled session helps me get through the tough days.