First of all, I would suggest you go easy on yourself (I know that's easier said than done, tho). If it's feasible, I would try to see what type of counseling you can get. In the meantime, I would do as much research as possible; libraries often have pretty good stuff on personality disorders, and there's a lot of stuff you can find online. And remember, that this stuff takes times and you won't get better over nite--so try to take things one day at a time.