I've been feeling really good for the past three weeks. It is the longest I have ever been happy in my life. Wednesday afternoon I started having this intense urge to cut, but didn't really feel bad. I talked to my therapist and she seems to feel it is because I've never been happy and it is a new and scary emotion for me. She thinks I want to cut because I'm so happy! After our session last night I may just agree with her.
This is the discouraging part, though. I just got off the phone with her and she suggested I may think about cutting every day for the rest of my life. It won't always be intense and may be fleeting, but it may be there forever. I'm not sure I can deal with that. It's really bothering me. I don't want to think about it every day. I guess my scars may make it impossible not to. I could use some encouragement and support. Thanks.