Thanks IFG, Cherry, Eskielover, Jkbob, Buttercup, TippPatt & Almostthere

Well, I made some calls today and no I didn't record them lol (I prolly would if I had a better phone lol) and I talked to the secretary of the Judge. I do owe $135 on my fine still. I still have six months of going through hoops. Babysitting, eating out because I'm gone at treatment for anger and substances treatment classes, P.O. appointments, educational evaluation, psychiatric evaluation, court appearances and weekly drug tests has left me exhausted and drained financially, emotionally, spiritually. Especially since I am pretty much agoraphobic lol. Hell, okay I am agoraphobic.

Long story short, the secretary told me that since this is my first offense and I have no "Priors" (never been in trouble with the law before that day etc.) that the Judge is going to be lenient on me. He already was, on the day I was convicted: I was supposed to do 120 hours of community service and he decreased it by 80 hours to have me perform 40 hours. Also, he put me working at a thrift shop that I walk back and forth from that I was already very familiar with and had frequently shopped at previously. He was very understanding and merciful!

She said I can turn myself in at any time, and a warrant for my arrest will ONLY be issued after September! Also, she said since I have communicated with them my plight and been compliant so far that I can call a bondsman and they will put up the amount to cover it, if I have not resolved this before then. Worst case scenario, she said I will spend ONE night in jail....which is wonderful news for obvious reasons. She said that P.O.'s usually try to use scare tactics with their constituents because when someone does not fulfill their probation, it reflects poorly on the officer and affects the status quo. So seven days, as I was told, was exaggeration.

I am almost at the finish line and I can taste freedom. This has been quite an ordeal. I will be glad to have this behind me and to move on with my life and my family.

I have been very manic throughout this day and I'm beginning to crash with energy, which is good and bad. I got so much done today, chores/laundry/cooking/taking care of business etc. but now I'm feeling that dreaded other side of the coin 'a knocking- depression. Its been a wild ride and I'm pretty exhausted.

I am so glad that yall have all contributed your generous advice, thoughts, prayers and support. I am overwhelmed with gratitude. I'm going to be okay! Who knows, maybe I can really make it. Who knows. I take this as great news, perhaps a humble but true miracle; all things considered. Thanks everybody PC rox my sox