Please help me and give me suggestions. I have developed severe, debilitating paranoia. I cannot get an email or text from just about anyone without experiencing severe panic and waiting for untold amounts of time to read it. I feel as though everything people are going to say is going to tear me down. This is affecting all parts of my life and I'm anxious over this almost all of the time.

The source of the paranoia is real, at least within my own mind. I was severely put down in letters many many times, usually with no warning when I didn't realize I'd done anything wrong. The last letter my mom sent me she accused me of stealing her memories and told me I was no longer her daughter. My friends would pass me notes in high school criticizing me....I remember even then waiting for a long time to read them, and the last real life friend I had, after I wrote him a heart-felt paper letter told me he was going to commit suicide, that I wasn't welcome to his funeral, and that he hoped I was happy with myself.

To be honest, some of new-found paranoia started here at PC when I'd write a post and would be put down for it. I'm not blaming anyone. It is all within my head, but I need to conquer it before it conquers me. Any help, suggestions, good web sites, and publications that you think would give me some insight would be much appreciated. Please...