Yeah you are right, I really have nothing to lose (except more hair and patience, ha!ha!) but at least not my mind this time thanks to therapy (had an excellent "cool dude" for a therapist where I lived before and a patient psychiatrist too!) I'm starting to get use to the new replacements where I live now, but I miss the old ones like one misses old friends (unfortunately due to ethics and all that stuff I am "not suppose to") but I do!
CamW, I really want to get off this damn depakote, the hair loss, the weight gain and the evening "zombie" with the sluggish morning start sucks! Though the doctors says I am not overweight, I am 5' 4" and up to 130lbs, true I am muscular but I still feel fat! I guess I will continue the doctors "med.show", and take the "wait and see approach", what's another couple or more months, right? It is just that before Oct.1999 (husband's secret(s) exposed) I never had a need for this crap plus the "label" I now carry plus all the other little bags I carry that I won't even go into, it is not anyone's problem to know about. Whatever, I still try to set my brain on things or places I'd rather be at before I fall asleep at night so I can "go there" for a little refuge for now and sometimes that works and I awake to a great day!! Or I read some poetry or even write some, connect with the outdoors and creatures, what a great escape!! I better stop before I become too obnoxious with my "stuff". Again take care, and stay well.
"darkeyes"