I think you are very courageous to have opened up like that. I'm not sure I could do it. It's too hard for me to trust anyone.
I can imagine how raw you feel. I feel that way all the time. I have to be very careful as to the things I expose myself to. It's too easy for me to experience the pain another person is going through even if it is a movie or a book--- pure fiction. The pain can haunt me for years after.
Be gentle and patient with yourself. Be proud that you had the courage to face your inner self. I respect you so much for doing it.
Do be careful about the things you expose yourself to. Watch only harmless programs with no violence or angst in them. Read books that have only gentle content. I suggest Jane Austin or Charles Dickens. Even though they may address a social difficulty they do it non- violently. Also I find that the British deal with murder mysteries much more cleanly. Teen-age fiction is good to.
I hope it gets easier soon.