i never understood this. i mean. til now.

i was called lazy in high school by my parents.
mostly my dad and into college.

i took 5 years of college for them to see i wasnt able to do school cause of what i beleive is cognitive stuff/issues. i took about 65 hours. which is roughly 21-22 classes in 5 years and i passed only 1. meaning only got earned 3 of those 65 hours. despite not only wearing my mind out but wearing it out through stress and thinking that i went into multiple episodes and almost got my jail time. stress was main issue. stress from school coupled with home stuff and then dealing with personal stuff within me like loneliness.

i remember trying to do work and in class with voices and all that other stuff. i exhausted everything. i mean i saw multiple school therapists. went to homework groups. met with professors. etc. on multiple campuses and went to two different schools.

ever since ive been out of college though idk if its being out of college or because of Sz or all the psychosis but my intelligence has gone down. i mean my ability to understand things/comprehend. my dad said i dont seem to understand very well anymore. i cant make speech well anymore.