title says it all.......

I know I can't be done... I just feel so done with everything and ESPECIALLY school and I'm not really sure why exactly I'm doing it in this section of PC but I needed to so I am and yeah...I'm just in need of support I guess...

I don't have many friends... in fact I have one.... and she does not understand ANYTHING. We were having a heart to heart one day and she literally says 'I hate people that cut... I mean seriously, why do you do it? It's gross.' I was so shocked that she would say something like that to me... and she's so triggering all the time with her 'dieting' **** and all that.... although I am really very sensitive to triggers. I'm going on a month long vacation with her soon and I'm dreading it to be honest... I really really really don't want to go... but even if I told my mum that I don't want to go, I would still go because if I didn't then I wouldn't have anyone to talk to at school and it's a cycle... I would be so depressed... I don't know what to do.... I'm so torn... and she's also such a persistent person and she won't let me go without telling her things. I DO NOT TRUST PEOPLE EASILY AND SHE DOES NOT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND IT. I have told her some of my feelings and giver her some very clear hints and stuff, but she normally tells me I'm being stupid or she just doesn't understand... please help and maybe some advice.

Thank you so much for reading!!! xoxo

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