I'm bipolar and I hate it with a passion!!! I can't keep friends I can't keep a job or most appointments, recently I had a suicidal episode and I'm pretty sure I scared my BFF off she been really distant, and we do everything together but the past week or so we haven't really hung out or texted like we usually do, I'm at a loss if I lose another friend I dunno what I'm gonna do I know I've got family but what's life with out friends??? Recently I've had a relaps in old behaviors and I'm scared, I feel so dirty and like a common *****... Who wants to be friends with a *****!? Like really Ashley your so stupid!! I knew I was playing with fire and I deff. Got burnt UGH!!!!