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Originally Posted by TheRealFDeal
Mara, I don't have any advice for you. I think what H3rmit had to offer was good, if you can do any of those things. I think you have a good plan, getting outside employment. I'm all about distraction, and there's nothing more distracting than an 8-hour a day job that completely absorbs your attention. I don't know if your at-home jobs provide enough of that. At least with an outside job, you are forced to interact with other people to some extent. I know for me, if I worked from home, I would be a total hermit and probably go for days without going out even just to get the mail. It would be very bad for me and I'm just amazed at how you do it. You sound so rational and wise when you post, even when you are expressing the turmoil you feel. You seem very strong to me and able and willing to do what you need to do to get better. That's big.
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I score standardized tests for a living, in particular one called the TOEFL (test of English Fluency). It involves me listening to foreign speakers answering the same prompt over and over again. It requires a certain amount of concentration, but I invariably return to PC all the time. What I can do to occupy myself is very limited and I start going stir crazy after a while. The problem is, it pays well and it's going to be difficult to go out and find something that pays as well.
I'm a certified teacher but I make more than I probably would teaching considering I moved to another state. I do have a small eBay business. I could start hitting thrift stores and such a few times a week to build it up.
I also, finally have insurance and am in the middle of researching therapists. The one I'd hoped for is not on the list. I need insight in to this that is not my own. I've gotten really, really bad. My mind can take just about any thought and twist it in to something it was never meant to be. Granted we all have a tendency of doing that, but it's occurring almost constantly and it's starting to take over and jeopardize a lot more than just my sanity and peace of mind.