:-( I cut again this morning

I tried everything else but in the end, I gave up trying. My friend from work said he was going to call me at the beginning of the week, it is now Friday and no call. I thought I could trust him. I know he has his own family and life and it is much better than listening to someone ***** and moan, but I thought he would be true to his word. He said he would help me get help or counselling, and he said he would come to the docs so they don't fob me off with meds again.

I only have three days until I go back to work, which is something I want to do, but I don't know if I will cope. Being home alone isn't good for me but I can understand work not wanting me in either if I am unstable.

I just wish I could crawl into a tiny space and hide, wait for everything to be ok again. I hate this bit of me, the bit that ponders on stuff, that worries, that is afraid.

Sorry, just needed to get that down somewhere