Rose76 –

Your life sounds amazingly similar to mine, though I have never brought up any personality disorders with my doctor. I do, however, have severe anxiety and I also fear that I will never be accepted by others. While I can’t imagine what it would feel like to have someone close to me in failing health, everything else I very much understand.

I fear there’s really not much I can say that’ll help you though…all I can do is tell you is that you’re not alone in this struggle. Is there anyone who you trust, that you can talk to? I put myself on the line and blurted out a lot of my issues to someone and it actually helped. A lot.

Just remember – you’re not alone!