Dearest Evil ~ I can SO remember the emptiness of my soul. I felt like my soul had LEFT me. The ungodly pain inside was more than I could bear towards the end. And you know what else? Most alcoholics are GOOD PEOPLE! They are kind, giving, caring people -- but so often they don't care for themselves. Their self-esteem is non-existent, there is so much guilt and regret, that they don't know what to do or where to go. They can advise others but can't help themselves.

Finally, when they hit bottom, and if they can stop being "embarrassed", they'll go to AA cause the people there are just like themselves! I was amazed, cause I saw priests, housewives, businessmen, factory workers, street people, Mayors, pastors, people from ALL walks of life! Lucky for me, my cousin was there, and I didn't even know she was an alcoholic!! She eventually became my sponsor.

Getting rid of that horrible emptiness was more than I ever expected. The friendliness and support of the people there got me thru. I'll never be able to repay that, other than continuing to try to help others. God bless my friend. I'm with you 100% . Hugs, Lee