Read the article on dealing with cognitive disfunction. I think some of it applies to me, but I also am starting to change my perspective on life and going to think that recovery is real and it will happen over time. This is the best I've felt in the last 5 months and I'm starting to feel confident again. From starting out thinking I could see the future, to rebuilding ones entire self from the ground up. All your comments have helped me out for the better. Hope everyone has a great day and my inner peace be with you.