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Originally Posted by madmusican
:-( I cut again this morning
I tried everything else but in the end, I gave up trying. My friend from work said he was going to call me at the beginning of the week, it is now Friday and no call. I thought I could trust him. I know he has his own family and life and it is much better than listening to someone ***** and moan, but I thought he would be true to his word. He said he would help me get help or counselling, and he said he would come to the docs so they don't fob me off with meds again.
I only have three days until I go back to work, which is something I want to do, but I don't know if I will cope. Being home alone isn't good for me but I can understand work not wanting me in either if I am unstable.
I just wish I could crawl into a tiny space and hide, wait for everything to be ok again. I hate this bit of me, the bit that ponders on stuff, that worries, that is afraid.
Sorry, just needed to get that down somewhere
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You don't have to be sorry for saying how you feel or what is going on. That is what this site is about, a place tto be able to get support in your time of need from people with similar struggles. I wish your friend was there for you. He may have had a good reason or forgot what he said. I think the only thing you can do is ask him about it, and let him know you were disappointed that he didn't keep his word.
Getting help is a struggle. It is out there and there are people that can help, but it takes time, effort and money. Don't give up, and remember you have the right to choose how you want to get help. If the docs try to pawn off meds and brush you away you can find better docs that will give you the help you are looking for. Try to stay strong. You will feel better one day.