Thanks for all the hugs and replies...I know I need to talk about it with my T. I'm just afraid that bringing it up will even cause him to become impatient with me because my transference is so present and I am annoyed with it. I'm sure he is too. He is a human being after all. I think that's why I felt like giving up last night. It feels so impossible to overcome /: I seem to put my T in a no-win situation and that's why I want to run and hide. I think he's going to tell me to buck up or get out. Honestly, I wouldn't blame him.

I will try to talk to him about it next time. Thanks