I know what ur going through..... been there many times with my long time buddy.....depression.

U must put in a super human effort to convey to ur T how u really feel....it seems to me that ur holding back your progress for some reason or another. U need to dig deep down inside of ur mind to find out why. Your t is there to help u and ur perception about how he sees u may be throwing u off...... our minds sometimes work that way....

I often feel that way myself... after fouteeen years of therapy i was ready to give up.... and i did....

I stopped going for therapy and stopped taking my meds and found that i was able to connect with my emotions. I was able to c clearly and was happy about my decison. I still feel depressed but i accept that as part of me..... I got that mental desease from my mom but kept it deep inside of me in order to move forward with my life.

I'm not suggesting that my situation is the same as yours, because everyone is different, I'm only saying that u shouldn't give up on yourself just yet.

Keep on trying...... it's a long term process and patience with understanding is the key!!!

Good luck 2 u and I wish u all the best.....

"almostthere"