Yes, I feel that I should be more calm because I know about the source of it. I just feel worry about what if some day she realise that I am not enough to her. She confuses me because she told me things that are contrasted. For example that she would like a woman who would make her feel somehow dominated, but on the other hand in reality i feel that she has so strong personality that I could never make her feel dominated - even if I wanted to. Or, when she insist that she is totally lesbian, but on the other hand she likes the idea of a man that takes care of her and make her to respect him.