Hi Ashley, you sound like you need a hug.

Having bipolar means we have to fight a battle in our heads everyday. It isn't easy or fun. Unfortunately, many people are not willing to stand and fight with us. The thing I've learned is that those people are not worth it. People like that I call "box friends." What's that? Well, people like to catagorize you into a little box. In your box are a set ways you need to think and act. If you step outside of your box, then they don't want you around.

It's sad but the majority of friends you make are box friends. Finding true friends is the hardest thing that you can do. I would say most people only ever have 1 true friend in their life. If they ever find more, then they are very lucky.

All of my old friends ditched me, back stabbed me, etc. It's done a lot of damage to my ability to trust people in genreal. But, even if you don't have bipolar box friends still exist. Everyone has them.

You're not stupid. Everyone makes mistakes here and there. The key is learning from them and things will get better. Whatever you did, you can learn from it and learn ways to help yourself not do it again next time.