AGONY!
I have been seeing my therapist for 2 months now on a weekly basis. At first it was just about work issues and now it has developed into a whole host of issues. I started looking forward to seeing her by the 4th week. I REALLY don't want these feelings about her nor need them. I just broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years and she is helping me deal with that. It was a very unhealthy relationship and I'm glad that it's over. However I can see me using my therapist as my go to person now instead of my girlfriend. Im pretty comfortable with this therapist. I will say that I was going to ask her if she had any problems dealing with a lesbian client. So far I don't think so.
Yesterdays session was a normal so I thought until I locked eyes with her and yep I was shaking. What???? She is totally gorgeous in my eyes, despite being 16 yrs older then I. I have always enjoyed my romantic relationships with older women. I do not want these feelings to be put upon my therapist. Its making it VERY difficult to concentrate. Yes some of my thinking of her is erotic and that is equally troublesome. I like that fact that she is straight, kinda makes it more bearable. She has told me for two sessions now that we should start spreading our sessions to every other week. This clued me in that she realizes and senses an attachment issue and possibly transference. Why would a therapist want to spread our sessions out if we are truly getting to the good stuff??????? This is what makes me feel like she doesn't want to deal with transference stuff. She is a LISW, not sure if that matters, maybe she isn't trained in this or maybe she is and just wants me to come out with it. Im soooooo confused and EMBARASSED!

Some help would be greatly appreciated, thank you.