i dunno what i want with this but i feel like telling someone even though is quite stupid.

so in December i decided to join a friendship chat (most sex than friendship) caz is the only way i have to "socialize". its rare to find a guy that doesnt want sex but once in a while they appear.. late march i met this guy there, intelligent, funny, witty.. just how i like a man to be. hes a gemini. he used to flirt a lot, he would always ask to see me on skype (he thought i was cute) and asked lots of times to meet me in person. one day i decided to say yes to meet him and gezz wtf was that?? he was never too affectionate online but in person? he was soooo damn cold, he didnt flirt, there was no connection even though i was the same girl he met online (funny, messing with him,...). i commented about his behavior and he just blamed not having slept much... even though afterwards he went with his "friends" to a dinner/drinks. he kept saying the date "was cool". i thought after the date he would use my number (he never sent msgs or even call me) that didnt happen. i read wayyy too many pages online to try figure out how gemini man works and what i read was they do not connect with anyone, lie/cheat, and want new things ALL the time (IM NOT trying to offend any gemini is just what i read). he desappears once in while without even saying anything which he knows pisses me off and recently all i had from him was indifference (he says hes like that with everyone, even ruin last relationship bc the way he is).

i dunno what happened there but most likely he was just screwing with me (since he thinks hes the last cookie of the package) and got me all into him. this Wednesday i almost had an accident (lost control of my car gladly didnt hit anything/one) do u think he cared?? nah
i never met such empty idiot like him. therefore i told him it was enough, he made me fool but was my own fault. said bye and bloked him on skype. you think till today he even sent a msg to ask waht hapened????? of course not

im freaking mad that i like him or i just liked the idea of FINALLY having someone to love me. im just an idiot and seems to pretentious of me wanting to have a freaking bf