I think I would try anything to get better. Does she realise how upset you were, I don't know you, but I think you are so used of keeping the good side out that you cannot let your emotions show and the therapist is not picking up on the real you. You are doing so well to work full time, I was working full time but couldnt do it any longer. I wish you all the best and hope that your new treatment works out for you.