You could be on the asexual spectrum, mike1127.

Not saying it's the case for you, but I mistook sexual attraction for a lot of other things since puberty, and once I realized that I probably didn't experience sexual attraction (I've never had the desire to pursue sexual or romantic relationships, never felt comfortable being the recipient of sexual advances, and my fantasies never seemed to have the same "feel" to them as I've heard others do, and so on), I realized I was much better equipped to navigate the relationship I -did- find myself in* and communicate the kind of intimacy that I really wanted, not the kind that I thought I wanted, you know?

*I'm married, but we've been long-distance for 4 years, so the "courting" phase happened at a pace much better suited to me and without the pressure of physical intimacy dominating our early relationship. Now that our honeymoon phase is over, I actually feel much happier with my marriage overall because that "passionate spark" or whatever was never something I could really grasp!