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Originally Posted by tinyrabbit
You don't sense that, you just think you do, and you're not sure, you just think you are.
I so totally empathise because I've been in this position so many times, and I have to tell you that this is transference talking. Yes, your T is a human being. Which means he understands where you are coming from, he cares about you, and that forward-back pattern makes perfect sense to him.
Every time I think these things about my T, I'm wrong.  |
You're right - I don't know for sure what my T is thinking or feeling. But I am very hypersensitive/hyper vigilant and it seems like I'm usually right when I sense things like this in life. It feels like a curse but maybe it's a self-fulfilling prophecy or something, Idk.
Thanks for reminding me that my T being human doesn't necessarily mean negativity. That's my black/white, depression thoughts talking....he could care about me on some level and still be frustrated with me. I suppose I should just let him feel and think whatever because I am crossing boundaries when I try and "tell him" what he is doing here....ugh. I feel like I have such a long way to go. If it wasn't for my child, I'm not sure I'd have the strength to follow through. I just know that I have to give it everything I've got for my kid's sake who deserves a healthier mom.