hey guys! I'm new here, so far I mostly posted in the depression forum.

I now got the idea to post here due to the addictions that lead to my depression.

It's really hard to explain what's up with me, but basically I'm addicted to company. I'm addicted to girls. I'm addicted to getting feedback from others, and that's why I used to be addicted to parties and weed and friends, and girls - relationships.

Is there anybody else here who is addicted to finding "themselves" in relationships with others?
Depression has been lurking for me in the past 4-5 years due to the fact, that I was never really able to be myself. I always wanted to make others happy and on the road to that, I completely lost myself.

I've been depressed for the past 1 year now, and 6 months out of that unable to work and function due to fatigue because of my anxiety and depression.

I broke up with my last GF in october, and since then, I haven't had sex, and basically no physical contact with females. And now I just started to meet girls again, and I am so so so afraid, of slipping into addiction once again. I'm so scared, I don't want to sacrifice myself for another girl once AGAIN, but I feel like it's like coded in me so deeply, that it's sort of a natural reaction for me to get addicted to company.

I'm in a really close relationship with my mom, and I know that the way she raised me has a lot to do with this. SHe always been close to me. Really really showing lots of care, love and affection to me. As far as I can remember she has always been there for me, and I learned really to love and give a lot. To others.. but not to myself.

Is there anyone else with these "symptoms"?

thank you very very much, for reading!
In my "new life" I try to find a balance in between being myself and still giving and loving others, but I just find really really difficult to change my patterns, yet this behaviour made me end up in depression.