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Originally Posted by Roadie
Jenna, I'm an alcoholic. I haven't had a drink in 20 yrs, but I do sometimes have strong urges to drink--because I'm still an alcoholic. The thing about addiction (I believe) is that it's a lifetime thing. Not everyone agrees; they think they can be cured, and go on to use moderately. I think if I have even one drink, chances are I'll be back drinking drunk in no time.
As an alcoholic, I'm also easily addicted to pain killers, which are in the same general category of drugs. I have to find other ways to cope with pain, such as acupuncture.
Rather than go through the agony of trying to "control" your addiction to Ritalin (or make your fiancé responsible) could you talk to your mdoc? I don't know that there are alternative treatments, but it's worth checking.
I hope you can face the reality of being an addict, or it's going to be very hard for you. Letting your doctor know what you're going through would be a good step. It's not going away, and coping with it now will make your life lots easier. Get other viewpoints, but get solid medical advice.
Take good care of you.
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Thanks for the response
I'm glad that you haven't had a drink for 20 years! That's a big thing as I'm sure you know. I hate those stupid urges. I still have them too. Although yesterday I didn't take more than I'm prescribed. I'm very proud of myself because I haven't done that in a while. I'm trying to get through today without taking more than prescribed and am doing really well. Oh yes, I have heard that its a lifetime thing too. I fully believe that. Yes, for me, I'm like today ill only take one more, but its never enough. Then I keep on abusing it. I've never been addicted to pain killers but have heard that they are terrible to come off of after being addicted to them. That's good that acupuncture works for you
I might talk to her. I'm scared to though because that would probably mean that I wouldn't get them anymore. Maybe that's the addict in me saying that. I've heard that there are other alternatives and I've tried some, but those didn't work very well. Maybe I didn't try the right ones though. I'll look into it. I'm starting to face the reality of being an addict now. I believe it since I crave and it's always in my head. I've been going to NA and CA meetings and they actually help. I'll continue to go to them too. Thanks for telling me about options and giving me advice. I really appreciate that.
Take care of yourself!