thanks to all of you for responding. It can get pretty lonely when you think there is no one else that thinks and feels the things you do.

Of course i've been obsessing about my therapist all day today.. checking my email and hoping she would touch base with me. What do I really want her to do? Beg me to come in and say that she really likes me and wants to hear what I have to say? Is that even realistic?? Once I put it down in writing it seems pretty silly. I want her attention and want her to be thinking about me just as much as I'm thinking about her... but I know that's not true. SHe's a professional and knows how to set up healthy boundries.

It feels like a break up.. I've been seeing her for years. My next session is in 4 weeks.. and I usually go every week. So this is a big thing for me. It's a test to see if I can manage on my own or if I start to crumble.

thanks again for such thoughtful responses.. it's just nice to air out my feelings in a place where we all have some type of issues we're dealing with.

take care