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GreyWolf1 · May 31, 2013, 09:17 PM

Hi,

Anything new, if we can call it that, is difficult to experience and to accept.

We remember Timmy, our 5 1/2 year old as "always being there". However, he stayed inside and only talked a little.

We were able to ignore our system for almost 40 years because everyone was hidden and unknown.

The first out was our Protector, to take care of Timmy, slowly over the months more came "into being", until there was 8 of us, and 2 Others, and 2 Shadows.

Our system may be unique, but for us, many of our "parts" or alters have come to have a distinct purpose.

Timmy handles / keeps the physical pain for the system
Nandan (14y/o) handles / keeps the anger for the system
(he also c*ts)
Carrie (15 y/o) handles / keeps the guilt and shame for the system
(she is also anorexic)
Scott (17 y/o) handles / keeps the fear and anxiety for the system
(he has General Anxiety Disorder)
and Tenanya is the caretaker / Protector for the system.

Realizing that all these "parts" or alters were there for me (the host) because I couldn't be helps to point out that they actually "saved" me. They didn't reveal themselves until "I" was ready.
AND having roles that they are responsible for helps me to realize that for our system, each "part" or alter is an important of a system that the mind designed to make life livable.
All my alters are a part of me, and some choose to slowly integrate them back into one.
For us, we have gotten so used to the voices that when we were prescribed something to silence them (it worked), I (the host) was so lonely I couldn't stand it.

We hope that this will help you and that you find peace.

Take Care and Stay Safe,
GreyWolf

PS - We are associated with a Veteran Support Center and according to the Director, we are more balanced than many that are served through the center.
Crazy is a term that people created because they do not understand.