OMG, I could have totally written your post. I can SO relate. It is so hard. I'm not sure, for me, if it's about trusting my T - but there is such intense resistance that I haven't been able to overcome - even after 4 years!

The members of my group T seem so much more willing to be open, which leads me to think that it's just me. I'm the oddball in the bunch who can't seem to do it. But I know that's not truly the case. I've been wondering lately if I will ever get past this.

You are not alone.